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The announcer just said your name so
knees weak and hands shaking
clutching a single sheet of paper
like it's the blanket to keep out the monster under your bed
you make your way onto the stage
coming face-to-face with the faceless
thinking it's a good thing your mouth's so dry because there's no time to swallow

The bright lights fill your vision
blink fast but don't look foolish
because there's no familiar faces
and as your heart races
your eyes look down but there's not a single sound

Your mind is blank
trapped back between those two blue lines
that never felt more like a cage
waiting for the perfect pixelated word to appear on screen
being stuck between this word or that phrasing
knees are knocking like every other time you fell
hands are shaking like they're not strong enough to get you back up
every scar is making itself known like they've got a separate heartbeat
but then you look up

You haven't fallen and you haven't fainted
all these faces are just waiting in expectation
they can see you, maybe you can't see them
but that's never been the point

The point is you've made it
every scar's just proof that you've survived
you're up on a stage no more time for revision
this is the final version
no more editing or second guessing
all those moments you fell down you stood back up and got to here

Before the paper's made it to the ground you've grabbed the mic
share your soul loud, stutter, stammer, breathe and let it back out
let your voice crack and smile because
you're up there you've made it and now
it's time to stare right back into that sea of faces
and let the mic drop
speak up
I think about things on the bus. This one was stage fright overcome.
will my words ever reach you?
i am chained by my own beliefs
that you are beyond my grasp
that my gaze should be averted
yet i cannot bring myself to look away.

you are more than my sun
you are everything good about me
so i can only corrupt you
must i stay away?

i have my devils on one shoulder
but i never had an angel
until i saw you

you throw an arrow at me
but i had already received Cupid's
and struggled so far
carrying the only thing i thought could match

not for you is the pretentiousness of a rose
but a sunflower for you are the sun
towards which i look always
following behind, waiting for you to turn around
but i am one of many who have placed you on a pedestal
you, who are out of reach
only my gaze can touch you
for the petals of this flower have fallen
and i cannot offer you a husk of a person in its stead.
my heart hurts
broken by people
who do not exist in flesh and blood and bone
but in words and sentences
captured on the once-blank pages
of a tree that used to be alive
as they can never be.
fiction breaks hearts
I just finished reading Marina by Carlos Ruiz Zafon
You claimed to read me like a book
breaking me open and leaving cracks in my spine
so I look older than I am

There are no highlights, just dog-eared pages
where our experiences intertwined
until part of me seems twice as large as the rest

You did read me like a book
enjoying the words as they came across your eyes
but when you looked into mine
You didn't see a window,
you saw a painting-
flat and without life or shadows
nice to look at but merely superficial-
just like you

You never read between my lines
you thought you knew all of me
but you cannot dissect who I am
And think you know me just because you know some parts

You're skipping pages and paragraphs
straight to an ending wherein I am the novel
you tossed into a bargain bin and forgot all about me

I have one thing to say to you-

You think you know the sum of my parts
but I'm the product of imagined numbers
and all my plot twists might've led me to you
but I've never been a big fan of fate

I am not a novel with creases and dog-ears
I am the reader and the writer
filling up pages with lines between lines
that you can't see
because you can't read deeper
into the motive behind a word
and the meaning behind a sentence

You're just a chapter in my novel
and I'm just a figment of your imagination
our story is over
and so is this poem
Letter to an Ex
So this isn't written at all like a letter, but that's ok considering I'd have nobody to send it to anyway XD The ending may be tweaked later on
Car rides
where the mind moves but the body doesn't
and still I arrive at point b
coming from point a
on my way to point c

thinking life is a ride
is a mistake because machines
can be hijacked leaving you
a hopeless backseat passenger
of the one thing you most want to affect

keep on driving but miss all the sights
blur all the lights till they run
together into lines of life
you're rushing past the roses

Car rides are enjoyable
and so is running
but life is not placed on a racetrack
so there are times when plugging your ears
and strolling away until the yelling can't be hard
is the one thing that might help you
from breaking down
from overheating

you are not a car
but the metaphor is implicit
Car Rides
Just because I do most of my mental writing during a car ride XD


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Why do you cry, child,
Why are your tears so black?
What do you cry for,
What is it you lack?

Whatever wish you ask,
I'll grant it.
Whatever hope you hold,
I'll fulfill it.
Whatever dream you dream,
I'll make it come true.

For you see, child,
I am you.

A poem to go along with the picture by hgfdsasdfgh The picture is the ID =)

A high school Filipino Canadian female, and a violent bookworm, I enjoy arguing about the most inconsequential things. Fantasy fiction is my favourite genre, as well as romance and comedy. I have read many mangas, and watched a few animes. That's pretty much it?

That wonderful picture up there is by the magnificent :iconhgfdsasdfgh: :love: Thank you so much you marvelous friend!

Current Residence: On a planet on an arm of the spiral galaxy the Milky Way
Favourite genre of music: Usually upbeat, or ones whose message I like
Favourite style of art: Expressive, simple, or amazingly detailed and looks effortless
MP3 player of choice: One that I am unable to break.
Personal Quote: Live life to the fullest, because tomorrow may not arrive.
tagged by the lovely :iconstarlightshoals: for a musical meme :D (feeling really lazy right now, so... I probably won't get to putting up links for these songs until later XD

1) Write down every letter in your name (You can use your username if you're not comfortable using your real one)
2) Write down a song that pops into your head beginning with each letter.
3) Count the number of letters and TAG that many people.

S- "Somewhere over the Rainbow" by Judy Garland
T- "This Will Be The Day" by RWBY
E- "Everything at Once" by Lenka
F- "Fuck You" by Lily Allen
A- "A Thousand Miles" by Vanessa Carlton
N- "Never be Famous" by hussalonia
I- "I Would Walk 500 Miles" by The Proclaimers
E- "Everybody's got Somebody but Me" by Hunter Hayes

and stolen from :icontuiskulumi: just 'cause~

Comment and I'll:

1. Tell you why I befriended you.
2. Tell you my favourite thing about you.
3. Associate you with something.
4. Tell you a memory of you that I try to remember. 
5. Ask something I always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you what I would do if we were in the same room right now.
7. If you and I were in a cop car handcuffed together. Using only three words I would say to you...
8. In return you must post this in your journal.
  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: random music from my collection on Grooveshark
  • Reading: The Damned Busters by Matthew Hughes

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Thanks for supporting my artworks. Please do not feel obligated to respond to all of it. It is not necessary. I know you are busy with your other activities.
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It's my pleasure, but thank you for understanding that I am busy at times ^^;
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thank you for the :+fav: :glomp:
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My pleasure :) I like your new icon!
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thank you :)
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