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I begin again only to fall again
trying my best to end up average
because when you're barely mediocre
you find

There's no talent in being a jack of all trades
because the master of one is shining
in the brightest spotlight
and your light
is barely bright enough to see
during dusk but

A single star will shine during night
and suffocating beneath barrels
is hardly worth the lack of energy
it takes to be apathetic

You only need one
person to make you feel like
you've become just a little brighter but
you've always shone that much
it was just hard to realize
that the shadows were your own

Make being mediocre so much more and
an average everyday routine
a rut so deep you don't want to climb out.
Simply Average
I like my sayings and well-known quotes and the occasional cliche.
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I got tagged by :iconobelis:

PERSONAL SECTION

1. What's your name/ nickname if you prefer?

Stefi

2. Do you like being surrounded by many people?

eh. Depends on what we're doing, but I usually prefer smaller groups

3. Do you think people in your real life consider you normal?

Nope.

4. Do you think there are things that make you stand out from the normal?

Stand out? Nah. You gotta talk to me first.

5. Would you mind telling us...?

I hug everyone and occasionally talk a lot whilst waving my hands about and feel a bit like a natural disaster - unstoppable and takes over.

1. How did you end on DA?

A friend had an account and I was like, 'why not join a place I can actually post my writing?'


2. Do you still have the first deviation you posted in your gallery?

Should be in there somewhere.

3. Do you keep your old deviations as memories?

Not as memories, just because I don't want to delete them. Once they've been written, I don't often feel like they're 'mine'.

4. Would you favorite a well-made piece of art although you are not interested in that >topic/style< of art at all?

Sure?

5. Do you think get feedback/watchers groups are useful?

I am not a dA group person... I guess they can be, but usually aren't.


ART SECTION
1. Do you have OCs?
 
Yes. 

2. How many? 

Around 20 maybe...? A lot are minor characters with only a name and a barely a description attached to them right now.

3. Do you do fanart? 

Not really.

4. Do you think original art deserves more credit than fanart? 

I'm not sure. I would say so though.

MISCELLANEOUS SECTION 

1. Do you watch anime?

yup

2. Do you read manga?

more often than watching anime

3. Do you think you can be too old for these?

Aw hell no.

4. Prefer movies or series?

Depends

5. Why?

If I like the plotline a lot, series. If I'm in the mood for something short, series.

7. Favorite book?

YOU THINK I HAVE ONE? Don't make me do this. I mean, I love Melina Marchetta's intricately detailed novels where there is a main plotline but all these fantastic details that make the story just so lovely to read, and then there's Sir Terry Pratchett's brilliant descriptions of, like, EVERYTHING. And then Rachel Hartman's two books, Seraphina and Shadow Scale, where the dragons are amazingly created and then Shadow Scale is just really casually queer friendly where being queer doesn't take over the plot but it's there like it's just a thing. AND THEN The Name of the Wind by Patrick Rothfuss is a beautiful fiction fantasy novel with the last book coming out soon (KVOTHE, DON'T DIE). For my past self (mostly) I love Diane Wynne Jones' worlds unlike our own, and Eva Ibbotson's morbid descriptions (but for kids!). Er. I can stop now. Prob- no, wait, The Broken Lands by Kate Milford are also amazing, I just love my intricate plots and almost romances XD OH, and The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland In A Ship Of Her Own Making by Catherynne M. Valentine is just a glorious growing up novel that continues on into at least two more novels. OK. Now I'm good. I guess.

6. Favorite genre?

Fiction, mostly fantasy but I'll read sci-fi too.

7. Can you be friends with people who have not one common hobby with you?

Yeah, why not.
 

8. Is making friends in real life easy?

Relatively. Keeping them is the hard part.

9. Are you religious?

Yes?

10. Do you enjoy discussions?

Absolutely.

11. Can you fall in love with a person without physical attraction?

XD Of course.

12. Do you personally do something against global warning/clime changes? 

I try.

13. Do you donate for noble causes?

If I had money I would

14. Do you like animals?

I adore 'em.

15. How well do you do with plant care? (house plants)

Uh. They get watered. Sometimes.
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Trees by twenty one pilots
  • Reading: The Scandalous Sisterhood of Prickwillow Place by
  • Watching: Julie Berry
Someone yet to be broken...

The idle thought slipped through my defenses
hardening my heart never seems to work
though I've tried to build a wall
smiles and laughs and hope
are always sidling in
I've read too many
romance novels
to believe
in love
again

cracked lenses and broken frames
the meaning of infamy is forgotten
I've lost the history of us and
it's not coming back without your touch
hurt noises resound in my throat
but I cannot say goodbye just yet

what is it about sad eyes that makes us want to lie?

love
falling
into mystery
what is it about
emotions that makes
us so irrationally act
where silence would be best
anger is making my heart its
stomping ground, forcing fear into
the corners and the edges of my sleeves

this is what we've fallen into, isn't it?

Forgotten mysteries
Forged love letters
Fully grown adolescence
Pretending adulthood
is part of the package
responsibilities make us grow old
did we have to grow up too?

growing apart with growing pains
jagged edges slip off smoothly
I was always the broken one
and you weren't the one who could make me whole
unbroken vase
for some reason I want vase in the title ^^;

So how've you lot been? Sorry to have disappeared for I don't know how long - university takes a lot outta you :D
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The announcer just said your name so
knees weak and hands shaking
clutching a single sheet of paper
like it's the blanket to keep out the monster under your bed
you make your way onto the stage
coming face-to-face with the faceless
thinking it's a good thing your mouth's so dry because there's no time to swallow

The bright lights fill your vision
blink fast but don't look foolish
because there's no familiar faces
and as your heart races
your eyes look down but there's not a single sound

Your mind is blank
trapped back between those two blue lines
that never felt more like a cage
waiting for the perfect pixelated word to appear on screen
being stuck between this word or that phrasing
knees are knocking like every other time you fell
hands are shaking like they're not strong enough to get you back up
every scar is making itself known like they've got a separate heartbeat
but then you look up

You haven't fallen and you haven't fainted
all these faces are just waiting in expectation
they can see you, maybe you can't see them
but that's never been the point

The point is you've made it
every scar's just proof that you've survived
you're up on a stage no more time for revision
this is the final version
no more editing or second guessing
all those moments you fell down you stood back up and got to here

Before the paper's made it to the ground you've grabbed the mic
share your soul loud, stutter, stammer, breathe and let it back out
let your voice crack and smile because
you're up there you've made it and now
it's time to stare right back into that sea of faces
and let the mic drop
speak up
I think about things on the bus. This one was stage fright overcome.
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will my words ever reach you?
i am chained by my own beliefs
that you are beyond my grasp
that my gaze should be averted
yet i cannot bring myself to look away.

you are more than my sun
you are everything good about me
so i can only corrupt you
must i stay away?

i have my devils on one shoulder
but i never had an angel
until i saw you

you throw an arrow at me
but i had already received Cupid's
and struggled so far
carrying the only thing i thought could match

not for you is the pretentiousness of a rose
but a sunflower for you are the sun
towards which i look always
following behind, waiting for you to turn around
but i am one of many who have placed you on a pedestal
you, who are out of reach
only my gaze can touch you
for the petals of this flower have fallen
and i cannot offer you a husk of a person in its stead.

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Why do you cry, child,
Why are your tears so black?
What do you cry for,
What is it you lack?

Whatever wish you ask,
I'll grant it.
Whatever hope you hold,
I'll fulfill it.
Whatever dream you dream,
I'll make it come true.

For you see, child,
I am you.

A poem to go along with the picture by hgfdsasdfgh The picture is the ID =)

A high school Filipino Canadian female, and a violent bookworm, I enjoy arguing about the most inconsequential things. Fantasy fiction is my favourite genre, as well as romance and comedy. I have read many mangas, and watched a few animes. That's pretty much it?

That wonderful picture up there is by the magnificent :iconhgfdsasdfgh: :love: Thank you so much you marvelous friend!

Current Residence: On a planet on an arm of the spiral galaxy the Milky Way
Favourite genre of music: Usually upbeat, or ones whose message I like
Favourite style of art: Expressive, simple, or amazingly detailed and looks effortless
MP3 player of choice: One that I am unable to break.
Personal Quote: Live life to the fullest, because tomorrow may not arrive.
Interests
I got tagged by :iconobelis:

PERSONAL SECTION

1. What's your name/ nickname if you prefer?

Stefi

2. Do you like being surrounded by many people?

eh. Depends on what we're doing, but I usually prefer smaller groups

3. Do you think people in your real life consider you normal?

Nope.

4. Do you think there are things that make you stand out from the normal?

Stand out? Nah. You gotta talk to me first.

5. Would you mind telling us...?

I hug everyone and occasionally talk a lot whilst waving my hands about and feel a bit like a natural disaster - unstoppable and takes over.

1. How did you end on DA?

A friend had an account and I was like, 'why not join a place I can actually post my writing?'


2. Do you still have the first deviation you posted in your gallery?

Should be in there somewhere.

3. Do you keep your old deviations as memories?

Not as memories, just because I don't want to delete them. Once they've been written, I don't often feel like they're 'mine'.

4. Would you favorite a well-made piece of art although you are not interested in that >topic/style< of art at all?

Sure?

5. Do you think get feedback/watchers groups are useful?

I am not a dA group person... I guess they can be, but usually aren't.


ART SECTION
1. Do you have OCs?
 
Yes. 

2. How many? 

Around 20 maybe...? A lot are minor characters with only a name and a barely a description attached to them right now.

3. Do you do fanart? 

Not really.

4. Do you think original art deserves more credit than fanart? 

I'm not sure. I would say so though.

MISCELLANEOUS SECTION 

1. Do you watch anime?

yup

2. Do you read manga?

more often than watching anime

3. Do you think you can be too old for these?

Aw hell no.

4. Prefer movies or series?

Depends

5. Why?

If I like the plotline a lot, series. If I'm in the mood for something short, series.

7. Favorite book?

YOU THINK I HAVE ONE? Don't make me do this. I mean, I love Melina Marchetta's intricately detailed novels where there is a main plotline but all these fantastic details that make the story just so lovely to read, and then there's Sir Terry Pratchett's brilliant descriptions of, like, EVERYTHING. And then Rachel Hartman's two books, Seraphina and Shadow Scale, where the dragons are amazingly created and then Shadow Scale is just really casually queer friendly where being queer doesn't take over the plot but it's there like it's just a thing. AND THEN The Name of the Wind by Patrick Rothfuss is a beautiful fiction fantasy novel with the last book coming out soon (KVOTHE, DON'T DIE). For my past self (mostly) I love Diane Wynne Jones' worlds unlike our own, and Eva Ibbotson's morbid descriptions (but for kids!). Er. I can stop now. Prob- no, wait, The Broken Lands by Kate Milford are also amazing, I just love my intricate plots and almost romances XD OH, and The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland In A Ship Of Her Own Making by Catherynne M. Valentine is just a glorious growing up novel that continues on into at least two more novels. OK. Now I'm good. I guess.

6. Favorite genre?

Fiction, mostly fantasy but I'll read sci-fi too.

7. Can you be friends with people who have not one common hobby with you?

Yeah, why not.
 

8. Is making friends in real life easy?

Relatively. Keeping them is the hard part.

9. Are you religious?

Yes?

10. Do you enjoy discussions?

Absolutely.

11. Can you fall in love with a person without physical attraction?

XD Of course.

12. Do you personally do something against global warning/clime changes? 

I try.

13. Do you donate for noble causes?

If I had money I would

14. Do you like animals?

I adore 'em.

15. How well do you do with plant care? (house plants)

Uh. They get watered. Sometimes.
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Trees by twenty one pilots
  • Reading: The Scandalous Sisterhood of Prickwillow Place by
  • Watching: Julie Berry

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it's been a while, still thank you very much for the :+fav:s :D
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