Author of the Moment

You sit at your keyboard,
Pressing each key with deliberate intent,
So worried about each and every mistake.
You orchestrate and plan out each line
Painstakingly
Before typing permanent words and mistakes
Because there is no 'backspace' nor 'delete' button.
Every second is spent obsessing over
Every missing leter, word misplaced
and wrong? punctuation.

You've gotten so absorbed in not making
Any
Mistakes, you've
Forgotten
What you were writing about.

And so you leave your keyboard for the night,
To wake up in the morning stressed and
Unable to let go of those
Misspelings and, errors.

But today you've reached the climax
Of your story.
You reach out for the keyboard,
Put your fingers on the asdfjkl; keys,
Feeling for the small lines on f and j.

And you type.
With blinding speed and a smile on your face
Every mistae forgiven, forgotten
You just keep going.
The story has taken over you.

As you go over the past
Ten pages
You realize there is not a frown on your face,
But one turned upside-down.

There were no mistakes.
Just happy accidents.

You've declared your imperfections
With every mispelling,
Grammatical error and
awkward sentence.

Sometimes, you have to write blind
To see what you're writing about.